Your day already feels decided before you even get out of bed.

You're scanning for signs. Tracking good days and bad days. Quietly believing that if he relapses again, it means you didn't love hard enough or watch closely enough to stop it.

Walking In The Midst Of It is a 90-day guided journal for spouses of addicts navigating codependency and the slow work of healing — written by someone who lived it for 13 years before he found his way out.

Each day, you'll mark how it actually went — calm, chaos, or using — and answer seven honest questions built to help you recognize the patterns you've been living inside. Not to fix your marriage. To rebuild a Christian identity that was never dependent on it in the first place.

You are not the addiction. You are God's handiwork, made on purpose, long before any of this started.